Dear Diary,

19-07-2022                                                                                                        02:14am

AAj pehli baar he talked with me frankly...... I wish i could tell him that how much i really need him......But he already like someone and i cannot come in between them.But i am happy cozz he called me first..... I wish hum sath ho pate......

Thanks 

love 

Deeksha

 Dear Diary,

03-07-2022                                                                                            01:51am

I hope u know why i am writing.....Aj fir wahi hua

Jisko mai itna pasand krte huu jisy mujhe pyar hota hai wo hi mere kismat mai kyu nhi hai...... kyu koi ur usko mujhse cheen ke leke chala jata hai

Kyu mere sath hi humesha aisa hota hai....Har baar mere sath hi adhoora pyar kyuu........Bade muskil ke baad itne saalo baad dil ne kha kisi ko haan bolne ke lye buttttttt  as usual koi aur

Maine sach mai dil laga liya thaa .....Kyu mujhe samj nahi aata.... Kyu bhejte hoo jab sath hoona h hi hota humko

mat bheja kroooo..... i need permenant not temperory..4

21june se shru hui baat and 03 july ko khtm sab

Janti thii ki uoar wala itna meheban mere  upr kaise hogyaa...... thankyou for proving me wrong.....

He was perfect soulmate for me bilkull mer jaisa tha sochne mai har chiz mai...Abb nhi ho paegaaaa..

Mujhe nhi hai jaipur wala pasanad majboorie mai krungii shadi mai sach bol rahi huu...

Zindagi bhar ghum yhi rahega ki nhi mil paya mujhe mere pasand ka ladka sach maiiiiii

agle janam mai love marriage hi krungiii.........

I wish i could get back him......................................................Kyuki i found him to be mine.....

I wish hum sath hote...Jo baatein mai kisi se nhi keh pate huu ek tum hi toh ho diary jisko mai atleast bol sakte huu...

With Love

Deeksha 

 17-06-2022

01:01am

Dear Diary,

I know kafi time baad mai wapis aayi... But kya kruu jo baatein mai kisi ko nhi bta sakte atleast i can share with you...

aajkal pata nhi kya ho gya mujhe naa padaii mai mann lag rahaa...

na competative exam mai......

na koi form time pe bhar rahii jo mai pehle krdete thii.....

kafi time baad mai wahi feel krne lagi hu jo bhut pehle krte thii

aisa lag raha hai leap ke baad firse sab shuru ho raha hai

wahi feelings aane lagi hai jo Mr A ke sath thii......

but you know the sadest part uske taaraf se koi response samj nhi aa raha....

plzzzz is baar agr final nhi hai toh aage nahi badne dena bhaagwanjiii mai ek aur breakup nahi jhel paugi......

Mai Mr S ko dhokha nhi de sakte kyuki usne openly mujhse shadi ka bola aur maine mana kr diya 

kyuki i like Mr V.....

Plzzz bhagwanji mee help krdoooooooooo mai kya chose kru....

mujhe shadi mai koi intrest nhi hai but abb pressure bhut badd gya hai kya kruuu.....

kash koi aisa option hota mai bhagg jaati

plzz mujhse iss problem se nikalooo

Regards,

Deeksha

03-08-2020                                                                                                                            20:21
Dear Diary,
 I am happy today ...Thank you so much bhagwanjii mai apka bhut bhut dhanyawad krti hun apne bhut madad  kari mere shayad mai pagal thii uske liye mujhe aisa nahi krna chaiye thaa ..
mai wahi sochu ki aap mere saath itna galat kaisey kr sakte hai but after the conersation with his nearone i m blesssed ki mere life bach gyi
acha hua mere shaadi usey nahi hui warna mai tadap tadap ke marr jati


faltu maine apni life ke 1year 7 months barbad kree

Mujhe aap pr bhi bhut gussa aa raha tha but abb laga hai apne jo kra wo bilkull sahi kra thankyou so much for saving me...

Regards,
Deeksha

28-July-2020.                                                                                              01:21am
Deari Diary,
Aaj mai bahut pareshan hun bhut kutchh chal raha hai mere mind mai...
Kyu wo wapis aata haii... kyu mai Pareshan hoti hun...
Jb wo chala gya tohh kyu aata haii
Maine kya bigada uska

Uska msg aaya tha 23/07/2020 ko free ho ...cal bhi kra sabne mana kra Don't talk but mera Dil kyu usko itnapyar krta haii  kyu

Baad mai btungii sab

Gn bbye

25-01-2020                                                                                                      22:48
Dear Diary,
           aaj kafi ino baad kutch acha nai lag raha.. bhut demotivate feel kr rahee hoon... kyu bhagwanji mere saath aisa krte haii...

maine kbhi kisi ka buraa nai kra fir q mere saath??
kyu mujhe itna seedha banaya???
kyu mai kutch nai kr paa rahe??

mai jb quit nai krna chhati kyu aisey circumsances aa gye kyuu??

kash mai net qualified hoti ??
kyu mujhse koi competative exam nai nikal paa raha??
kyu??

Plz help me knhaji....

Deeksha

04-10-2019                                                                                      23:37
Dear Diary,
aaj Ankit ka pre wedding photoshoot tha islamnagar mai aur cresent club resort mai..
shyd kal raat sayaji gya tha...

abb toh lagta hai usne kabhi mujhse pyar kiya hii nai
shyd mai hi pagal thii bhut badii wali pagal
Kyu mujhe usey pyar hua
kash wo mere life mai aata hi naii...
kya yarr october 22 ko hum 2nd last time mile thee Touchwood mai aur aaj..
kyu bagwanji ????
Kyu mere saath aisa kara tha???
Mera dil kyu toda thaa
Maine aisa kya kra ???Kyu usne cchoda ??
Sab mere galti thii nai bharosa karna chaiye thaa.....


Plz mujhe nafrat sikha doo mai itni nafrat kru ki wo mujhse aaj ke baad kabhi na mile na mai kabhi usey takra jaun...

Plz abb mai usko aur nai dekhna ya uske baare mai sochna chhati hun..


I just hate him.....




Take  me away from his life and memories.


Deeksha