dear diary,
31-05-2018                                                                                  1:14am
why bhagwanji mere saath hi q hota hai. jin rishto ko nibhana chahte hunmere kismat ai hi kyu alag karna hai.
q mai jiske jitne karib aati hun tum usko mujhse cheen lete  ho.. maine kya bigada hai tumhara.. saare dukh mere kismat mai kyu likh diye. maine aisa kya kiya bta doo mujhe..
nai jeena chahte tumhare is kohkli duniya mai ab jeene ka mann nai karta...
hn koi samjne wala taak nai hai.. mere pass ab koi ajh nai hai jeene ki... 
Q MERE SAATH KRTE HOO AAP AB MUJHME ITNI SHAKTI NAI HAI KI ITNE DUKH EK SAATH SAHU....
mere pass ab kutch nai hai khoone ko kyu aap mujhe he target krte hai maii toot rahi hun bhik mangte hun apse do toh achi zindagii do nahi toh chin lo mujhse aapp yeehh zindagiii.. bhooj lagte hai  ab mujko   

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DEAR Diary,
12-05-2018                                                                                       23:41



                         aaj fir mai movie par gyi raazi c21 mall.. pata nai q mai uske taraf kheche chale jaa rahe hun.. mai yeh bhi jante hun ki humara koi future ni hai but unke saath jeene ka mann karta hai. pata  nai kya ho gya hai mujhe sab kutch jaane  samjne ke baad bhi mai unke taraf kheche jaa rahi hun.
wo mujhko mujhse ache se janta hai. kai aise chiz hai jiske baare mai mujhe bhi samaj nai aata but wo samj jaata hai. aissa kya hai humare beech. north - south pole hone ke baad bhi hum kyu ek door se bandnaa chahte hai. hum dhere dhere aage badte jaa rahe  hai jabki hume peche hon CHAIYE.. q aisa ho raha hai q mai unse  dur nai ho paa rahi....
aaj unhone apne multi dekhaye itni risk par jo goodshepered colony ke just samne hai. but jab usne swarna ka naam liya mujhe bhut uncomfortable sa laga. pata nai kyu.. aaj poore raaste bhar unko dekhte rahe pata nai kab yeh yaade kab yaad aa jye.. hum kabhi fir mile ki nai mile .

 mai jeena chatee hun par shyd kabhi nai bol paungii.. q hum itni pass hone ke baad bhi......



chalo bbye


i wish i could do what was going in my mind.

god plz help me out, from this situation.
 bbye
gn


DEEKSHA

dear diary,
10-05-2018                                                       1:28am

aaj first time thode der phele mr A mujhe paan dekr gye. maine kabhi itna expect naii kiya  bhagwan jii achanak.. aisa kaise hua. but  thanks mr a its just becoz of u i m so happy.
love u
bye