dear diary,
15-06-2018                                                                                            01:56am
 aaj fir wo mujhe akele chod gya. jisne promise kiya tha ki tum roote hui achi nai lagte par usi insaan ne mujhe fir akela chod kr chala gya..
sab jhut hota hai pyar vyar kyu  mujhe sahare ki zarrorat hai. kyu apne mujhe itna kamzor bnaya,
aaj poora 10 saal ho gya ek nai rishte ki shuruaat hui thi aur 10 saal baad wahi rishta khtm ho gya..

papa sahi bolte hai mai nibha sakte kisi ke saath rishta.. mai akele hi reh jaungii
ek chote si baat itni duri paida kar sakte hai dil ko tadapta hua chod kar jo chala gya kya bolu usey galti mere hi hai maine mauka kyu diya kyu  yhn mai scul chodne ke resignation letter ki good news dene wali thi aur wo apni uss sadi se baat ke chakr mai chod gya....yhn mai tadapta hua chod kar koi kaise reh sakta haisa kutch jaane ke baad wo nai samja mujhe
ab ek hi request hai bhagwan ji ab kabhi kisi se itna mat jodna ki uski judai ka gam bardasht na ho pae...
marr rahi hun paar koi fark nai hai.... kyu mai itni soft hearted ho ki nai kar paati mai
bhut guilt ho raha hai ab..... ki kyu maine trust kiya kyu apni saare baate btye apni tabiyat teekh hoone ke baad bhi usey baat karne ke liye aayi...
ab bas jitne bhi din hai na mere pass ache dedoo plz bhagwanji....
mai adhi adhoori khwaishoo ke saath nai aa paungi.....


bye

dear diary,
13-06-2018                                                                                                               1 ;52am
 kyu mere saath aisa hota hai.. sab kutch honne ke baad bhi mere pass kutch nai hai....
papa i miss ualot.. bhut yaad aati hai apki. apke alawa koi aur nai mila jo samje mujhe ya samjha sake. bulla lo papa mera mann mar chuka hai..ya dil krta hai ki sab kutch chood chad kr kahin dur aise duniya mai chale jaun jhn koi mujhe naai janta hoo...
Mai ab apni pehchan badalna chahte hun...
iss ghar se dur sare rishte naato se dur jana chahte hun aur kabhi bhi wapis nai aungii papa maii
sab apne bachoo ka sochte haii chote chacha soni ko,bade chacha shantanu ko, chote papa shweta ko.. sab apne bacho ko pyar krte haiunko dekh kr bhut bura lagta hai papa. kyuki inn sab se sabse zada pyar aAP mujhse krte thee... apki bhut kami lagte haii  papa....kyu aap mujhe akele itni jaldii chale gye
mai bhi jaldii aungii apke pass yhn naii zaroorat hai kisi ko mere...

i miss u papa

bye
DEEKSHA CHAURASIA