04-10-2019                                                                                      23:37
Dear Diary,
aaj Ankit ka pre wedding photoshoot tha islamnagar mai aur cresent club resort mai..
shyd kal raat sayaji gya tha...

abb toh lagta hai usne kabhi mujhse pyar kiya hii nai
shyd mai hi pagal thii bhut badii wali pagal
Kyu mujhe usey pyar hua
kash wo mere life mai aata hi naii...
kya yarr october 22 ko hum 2nd last time mile thee Touchwood mai aur aaj..
kyu bagwanji ????
Kyu mere saath aisa kara tha???
Mera dil kyu toda thaa
Maine aisa kya kra ???Kyu usne cchoda ??
Sab mere galti thii nai bharosa karna chaiye thaa.....


Plz mujhe nafrat sikha doo mai itni nafrat kru ki wo mujhse aaj ke baad kabhi na mile na mai kabhi usey takra jaun...

Plz abb mai usko aur nai dekhna ya uske baare mai sochna chhati hun..


I just hate him.....




Take  me away from his life and memories.


Deeksha

02-09-2019                                                                                                                       22:26
DEAR DIARY
Aj teej aur chauth ki raat  haii har saall  anit aur mai waisey toh daily hum log itni baat krte thee ki kaii baar raat raat bhar sote nii thee.... butt iss saal pehle baar aisa hoga ki mai ankit se  uske bina ...
I love him still kal uske call ane ke baad aaur bechan se hoo gyii.. halaki call nai uthaya uska but mai useyy bhut pyar krte hunn plz bhagwanjii plz kutch karoo...

Mai kal bhi usey pyar krte thii ... aaj bhii usey krte hun....aur marte dum tak karte rahungii....
9 mahiney ho gye mai usko abb taak bhul naii paayi hun .... aage kaisey bhulungii......

sab bolte haii ki waqt sab kutch sikha deta haii but  sachaii yahii hai ki mai uske bina nai jii saktii mai sirf aur sirf wahii hai....

aaj ankur ne prpose kara but maine usko clear bol ddiya ki hum dost haii... aur plz  apni dosti ko spoil naa kre..



naii hoga pyarr mujhko kabhii shyd issi wajah se shadi bhi nai kr saktee...

baad mai  baat krte hun


Deeksha 

01-09-2019                                                                                                                      23:48

DEAR DIARY,

I DONT NOW AMKIT KYU CALL KAR RAHA... MAINE NAI UTHYA USKA CALL... AUR NA KABHI UTHUNGII... BHULL GYI HUN USKO AUR NA ABB YAAD KARNA CHHATI THII...

DEEKSHA CHAURASIA

23-08-2019                                                                                         22:23
Dear Diary,
Continue...

call details

abb aur kya janna chate hoo.....

i wish ki usey kabhi mujhko pyar hua hi nai hota... na o mere qismat mai aata na mai itni attached hoti.....

naii hai himmat yarr..

Deeksha

23-08-2019                                                                          22:12
DEAR DIARY,
Kal ankitt se lat baar baat hui aur abb usne saaf mana kar diya ki tum abhi 8 mahino mai move on nai kar payii aage kya krogii isliye aaj ke baad mai tumse baat nai kr paunga.. yeh shyd humare akhri baat hoo....


i wish mai usey jhagad pati.... sunna sakti but aine kutch nai bola useyy.....

calls ke details bhi haii ...


aur recordings bhii but

next blog mai karte hun


Regards,
Deeksha

19-07-2019                                                                                                            23:14
Dear Diary,
aaj mai saam ko peeetrol bharwane gyi thii kopu ke saath kyuki usko kaam tha shop ka ttohh maine usko bola kutch khane chale .. wo maannn gyi thii but humgye bhi vip pr bhuuta khane uska koii dost bhi aaya tha  whin ek car aayi jisme ladka ladki thee aur wo joo hotaa hai wo kr rahe thee bf/gf thee ...
pata nai sab kutchh yaad aa raha thaa ....aisa lag raha thaa ki bhagwanji bata rahe thee ki yaad karr....
kasam se mai kal ankit  se bhut nafrat kr rahee thee ki kbhi usko zindagii maii yaad nai krungii...


fir q  ab wapis mere samne aa raha hai....bhull jana chhate hubn bhut durr jana chhate hunn uski yaad se itni dur ki kkbhi mujhe yehh yaadd bhi na aaye ki iss naam ka kabhi koii insaan thaa jisko maine bhut shhidat ke saath chhah thaa aur usne mujhe ditch kara

 usne fb pr kal unfriend kara

sachh mai zindagi mai abb kbhi pyar nai ho paega sala jo shidat ke saath bhi karega usko bhi dhoka dungiii ....prr kya karu dhohe ka dard samajte hunn naii de paungii...

but bhagwanji apse ek vintii hai ki ankit ko lifetime regret rahe ki usne mujhe  ditch karke apne zindagii ki sabse badee galtii kre haii ...

mai sundar naiii hii isliye usne mana kara thaa na pne ghar mai mere baare mai baat krne ke liye...

kasam se Chaavi pata nai kaisey hai but mai itna pray krungiii ki lifetime wo sirf guilt rahe aur tadpee ki diamond ko chod kar coAL  ke peeche pada haii....
mai bhi dekhtee hun unki chhavi itni ache kaisey haii.. kyuki kisi mai koi na koi kami hoti haii aur koi peerfect nai hota...
chhavi kaiseyy 100% perfect hai  aur deal kya hui jo naa hote hote haan kar diii...



usko lagta hai i mujhko nai  pata but i m 100%  sure wo chhavi ke saath khush nai hai na kbhi rahegaa....kisiki khushiyoo ke mahal ko gira kar apni khusiyoo ka ghar usko bhutt mehanga padega...

bhagwanjii plzz kutchh din ki mujhe aur zindgii dedoo taki mai ankit ko tadapte hue dekhna chati hunn...usko dukhii dekh kar mai bhii khush naii rahungii but mai usko bhi khush nai dekh sakteee...

i hate him.....and abhi tohh kutchh nai but agle jaanam mai useyy badla lungii...
iss  janam ka tohh pata naii kyuki mai jante hun aapne itna waqt nai likha ki mai kisi se revenge lunn but agla janam maii itna tadpegaa


iss hi janam mai tadpega aur usko realize ho ki kisi ka dil dukhi kar ke shaadi karna kitna acha kaam kara usne .



Regards,

Deeksha

15May 2019.                                          11:52am
Dear Diary,
Mai q nai aage bad paa rahe hun... Kyu har baar uski yaad aa jati haii
Mai dur jaana chhati hunn pr kyu nai jaa paa rahii..
Q wo mujhe aaj bhi khin na khin mere dil dag pr hai
Q bhagwanjii...  Mujhe uski yadoo se durr jr doo....
Har wo chiz jo usey judi hoo nai  bass mujhe na aaye yaad...
Kopal ko bhi maine sab bta diya humara past present etc etc
Sach yrr dost dost hota haii...


Uski yado mai shayri  likh dii


1
Zikr tumhara jab bhi iss mehfil mai hota haii...
Ankhe jhukti hai..
Aur dil mai kutch kutch hota haii

2
Aaj fir uski yaad ne mujhe fir se jhanjhod kr rakh diya..

Zindagii bhar ka gum mujhse se jod diya



3

Wo sham thii ajeeb se
Wo raat thii ajeeb se
Na jane kaise
Wo Nind aaye hume ajeeb si

Sach mai kbhi nai socha thaa ishq  aise bala haii...  Na ho tohh zada acha haii



Regards
Deeksha

26-03-2019                                                                                                                    23:19
DEAR DIARY.
aaj mai kya btun sach mai kasam se maine nai sochaa thaa ki mai uski shakl dekhungii...

aaj mai soni ki books lene gyi thii toh books lene maai time thaa toh socha deepika ke ghar mai chali jaun.... hnn shyd uske ghar taak gyi but wo thii naii---- but hnn ek umeed thi ki ankit dekh jayega..but deeepika ghar par nai thii uska flat dekhaa saare yaade taza ho gyii sach mai ab uss gali se nikalne ka dil hi nai chhata sab yaad aata hai..


fir maine socha books le lun but fir laga ki chali gyi lene bhar gadi khadi kare toh msg kiya jab taak mishti aati tab taak  uske CA bhaiya aa gye... ek cute se baby ke saath usske baad humne kha jab taak mishti aa gyi books de jaa hi rahi thii bola misthi ne ki aap badal gye hoo tohh uma dii aa gyi fir wo chali gyii  mai bus niklne hi wali thii ki itne  mai Anu aa gyi


ki andar chalo aap mummy bulaa rahii haii mai gyii mann nai thaa fir bhii gyi toh dekha ankit ki mom bhi thii kya thaa firr dar laga


thodi bhut baat kri fir mann kara nikal jaun bhook mar gyi thii...fir kya

HIT JAB HUI MAI GADI PAR THII NIKLNE KE LIYE HUI TOH BAS MISHTI SE BAAT KAR HI RAHI THII KI ANKIT AA GYA APNI BIKe  SE...
DIMAG AISA KHARAB UA KI KYA BTUN MOOD BHUT OFF HO GYA BHUT DEPRESSED FEEL KAR RAHE THEE YARR MAI BHUT ..

BOOKS LE AUR GHAR A GYI BUT I HATEE HIMMM

GHR AATE HI STEFFI KO BTYA GHR GYI STEFFI KE ROII BHUT KYUKI I STILL MISS HIM ND LOVE HIM.....
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YARR MAA PAA NE KABHI MANN NAI MARA NA ISLIYE BHUT TAQLEEF HOTI HAI YARR....
 kash yarr pehle baar aisa  hua hai ki itni property , money sab kutch hone e baad bhi ai ANKIT  nai mil pata yarrrr...


qqqq  mere saath aisa kara kyuuuu???? maine aisa kya bigada tha bhagwanjiii...


har baar 2 love birds ko milwaya hi hai  kopal ka enu di ka chinu dii ka anmol ka ..


fir mera pyarr adhoora q haii yarr q mai adhoori reh gyi....


steffi ne bola delete the contact number-

9755416566   mishti
8839155955     mishti mom
6261537215    mishti
9111853456     mishti


Deeksha...

21-03-2019                                                                                                             1:45AM
DEAR DIARY,

AAJ PAA MA KI BHUT YAAD A RAHII....
YHN KOI NAI HAI MERA MUJHE SMAJNE WAL......SHYD ISLIYE MERE JEENE KI ICCHA BHI MAR HUKI HAI...


BASS YAHI DUA KRTI HUN KI MUJHE BULA LO...YHN KOII NAI HAI MERA PAPA I MISS U....
AAP WAPIS AA JAO YA MUJHE BULA LO..... MAI ABB AUR NAI JEE PAUNGIII....






DEEKSHA

11-03-2019                                                                                                    23:30
Dear Diary,
aaj mera accident fir hua
bhut tezz lag gyii thii gutne maii
aaj fir ankit se baat hui din mai kyuki kl full night pareshan thii but usko samaj aa gya thaa ki new no se mai hi kr rahee hun but woo
bolta ki tum apne ego ke aage kaise jhuk gyii


sach btun  uski baato se lagta hai ki wo khush nII haii

samaj naii aa raha jab wo khush nnaii haii toh fir q shadi kr raha haii....


khush toh maii bhi nai hongee jiyungii zaroor kisi ke saath but shyd Ankit ko kbhi nai bhul   paungii
kbhi naiii



Deeksha

09-03-2019                                                                                                                          00:11
Dear Diary,
           Kyu mujhe uske call ka intezar hota hai?
kyu mai usey itna yaad krte hun??
kyu rooz raat lagta hai ki shyd woo ab call karega ???
kyu aisa hota hai??
mere pass har chiz adhoori q  hai
pehle maa-paa yun chod gye 2015 mai aur yeh ab ss waqt maii???
q mere kismat mai har chiz adhuri hai??




I miss him.....Naii reh paa rahe bann rahe hun bhut bold but ab nai hoo paa raha ki mai uske bina reh paun???
kyA karuu plz help me out?????



Deeksha

05-03-2019                                                                                                                                       23:00
Dear Diary,
  Sach mai aaj mai pehle baar Ankit ki mom , dad ,, anu se mili... life mai pehle bar jinse itna milne ka dil chhta tha aaj unse jake mil paye..

jinse milne ke liye 3 saal ka waqt lag gya jaanti hun bhut late ho gyi mai unse milne but pata nai q unse milke bhut acha laga mana zada time naii mil payii but unse mina hi bhut thaa...

life mai bhut  mann tha ki ankit ke mom se milu wakaye yarr .....unki mom bhut achi hai yarr.....
Kash wo mere saas hoti ..... Kash.....

Kash mai unki bahu hoti......kaash unhe chhavi nai mili hoti.......


qisamt q itni alag hai mere...



Actually aaj na Mithi gyi thi clg ki taraf se but  aur fir navnidh gyi mili sabse toh jaisey hi andar jaane ke liye hui dekhe Swift aa rahe pata nai q mai mudii kya pata ajeeb sa ehsaas hua tha ki kutch acha hoga...
dekha toh Ankit ki mom dad and anu peeche thee..
I was shockedd....
But pata nai q andar se lag raha tha ki main Kaisey achanak mili...
Jab reception par mili dekha Aur maine bola
Anu right
Toh wo sochti usey pehle hi maine Auntyji Namestey kara aur mai mili Unse Fir Bola mai Mishtii ki teacher bOLte ohh aap hai AANA GHAR BETA ....MAAine bhi bola ji auntyji;

Uncleji ko bhi namestey bola aur w log andar reception chale gye....

But wo  sab yaad aa gya yarr kya  chhati haai zindagii jis past ko bhul kar aage move on karna chhate hun

//kyu baar baar wapis meere samne aa jata hai q mai itni kho gyi thii yaado mai ki sab kutch bhul gyi apn rishte ke baare mai ... chhavi ke baare mai ki ab wo porrane jaisa kutch nai hai sab badal gya haii...


Q mai  jab bhi move on ka sochti hun tohh wapis wo sab kutch move on nai karne deta
aaj mann mai itne question aaye ki kutcgh samaj nai aaya ho kya raha hai life mai q mai itni beechan huii

Ajj bottle ghuma dii  but koi dukh nai kyuki aaj Unke mom dad se mili Shyd yahi reason haa but jo bhi hua na Kyu hua K ya chhate hai bhagwan ji kutch samaj nai aa raha...


Sach mai kyu kyu itna alag hua kyu aisa ho raha haii kyu mere saath aisa hua kyu sab kutch itna jaaldii hua q bhagwanjii q jab mai life se jaaane ka socha fir q wapis sab kutch wahii hua kq



q bhawannjii Jawab dedejiye...Plz .....

Answers de dejiye na...


REGARDS,
Deeksha Chaurasia

JANTE HUN /KHO DIYA NA MAAINE TUMHE?KYUKI ITNA MUJHE PATA HAI KI MERE HATHO NE GALAT SAATH NAI CHHUNAA THA///KHO DIYA NA MAAINE TUMHE?KYUKI KUTCH TUM KUTCH KEH NAI RAHE HO AUR MAI TUMKO DEKHRI HUN.//NIGAHEIN NICHE KYU HAI TUMHARE??/KHO DIYA NA MAAINE TUMHE?kYUKI AAJ MAI PHIR SE LIKH RAHE HUN../// YEH TABHI HOTA JAB MAI AKELE REH JAATI HUN////KHO DIYA NA MAAINE TUMHE.JANTI THI  ANJAM PHIR BHI IS DORAHE PAR UMMID LE KE KHADI HUN..//JANE ANJANE MAI HUM BEGANE HUE....

27-02-2019                                                                                                              22:15
Dear Diary,
 I know mere pass zada waqt naii hai but mai jitna bhi jeena chhata hun khushi khushi jeena chhati hun ......
shyd isliye bhagwanji ne waqt kam diya aur bola jao deeksha ji sabki life mai khushii behkher aao.. sabko khub haasaoo,,,, khubb mastii karoo,,,, sabke face par smile le aao,,
ghar mai sabko ek dusre ke prate pyar doo,,,,,,

but waqt nai diya ki mai inn logo ke saath chain se jii lunn.....

maine apne ghr pr kisi ko bhi naii btaya naa mumy papa chacha kisi ko naiiiii


but mai kya kruu mai naii chhati i mujhe vip treatment miilee jo kutchh dino keh mrehmann ko miltiii haiii



maine yeh baat sab se chuppaiii kyuki mai naii chhatii thiii

Ankit ko btane ka kaii baar mann kra but himmat nai huii... uspr itna trust kru but chaa hua nnaii btya... na usne kabhi pyarr kiyaa

mujhe aur time de dete kash mai thoda sa waqt aurr jee lete inn logo ke saathh....

maii jeena chhati hun apni adhuri khawashiye porri kr dete ...
pyar tohh bhut log krte haii pr mere jaisa pyar koi naii kr saktaa
maii zindagii bhar pyr kti rahungii marte dum taak aurr uske baad bhii.....

:(

sach maii mere wish adhurii reh gyiii....

i will miss everyonee...


kya pta kal ho na ho.............'




Deeksha

25-02-2019                                                                                                                 23:03
Dear Diary,

bhagwanji se yahi dua karti hun ki kabhi kisi ko pyaar mat karna agr karqwaoo toh shadi taakk karwana..

pyar wo taqleef hai ki kya btun mai apni aane wali post mai iski audio upload karungii but yahii dua karti hun kabhi kisi ka pyar adhooa na reh jaye..

poori baat karwati hun....

btungii sb dhree dhrere....

Deeksha Chaurasia

18-02-2019                                                                23:49
Dear Diary,
aaj pehle baar maine ankit ko ignore kiya kal raat matlb raat mai 18 ko 1:32am par ankit ka call aaya but maine ignore kara jaan mujhke3.33  min hi baaat  kare... pata nai kya chhata hai

wo himmat nai dikha raha hai sach bolti hun 2 kapdo mai zzindagi guzar sakti hun agr wo saath de toh ut usme hiimat hi nai hai yrr.

sachii agr pyar nai hota toh kabhi aisa nai sochtii..


gn sdz

15-02-2018                                                                                               23:58
Dear diary,
kal ankit se bhut lambi baat huii but mai kya btun.......baad mai btungii exams ke baad..
bhut ajeeb bhi laga samaj bhi nai aaya

27-01-2018                                                                                                            22:58

Dear Diary,
               aaj ankit ka call aaya akhiri baar 10 jan ko hui thii
puchta ki bhut khush hun  kya  boluu
steffi bhi thii conference call pr....
uske call ke baad bhut roiii
kya btun ki kitna MISS kra
a steffi se milkr call pr khub roiii....

kl btungii abhi mann na haaii

gn
sdz
love u steffi