Dear bade papa,

Papa apke jaane ke baad bhut jhagde hote hai hum me meraa ek do din mai mummy se ya papa se ya shweta se aur apko paa hai pap aajkal yehh kirti  bhi bhut muhh chalalne lage hai bhut pareshan karke rakha hai ussne mujheusse kalpana bhut push kar rahi hai bhut bakwas karte rehte hai daily papa subhah se kitchen jayenge jaan mujhkar wo log zoor zoor se bartan patkenge nad firbaate karenge papa kyuki unko koi bhi dar nahi hai woe k dum azad ho gayi haii papa mein akele pad gayi hun koi nai hai mere saath .. apko toh pata hai mai kisi se daaar kar ya pressure mai nai rehte   mai jantee hun papa mai inn logo ke beech mai kaise reh rahi huun.

Papa koi samjne wala bhi nai hai papa harr chooti chotti  baat se dark e karan humko chillate haii baar bar iss liye mere bhi nai bante  ,papa ka kehna hai ke hum dark e raho waqt badal gaya hai ..

Mummuy ka kehna hai ki saata chali gayi hai zayada mat bolo...bhut bolte ho ...mai agar kabhi kutch chupake rakh dun apka ya mummy ka saman toh daathe haii and bolte haii kya kaarna kutch nail eke jayenge . Sonia ko bhi chipkate hai ..

Aurr haaan papa duno ka kehna hai ke hum bade hai humko dhyan rakhna padega inn sabka bhale yeh log kaisa bhi kare.

Sala samj nai aata kyu inn logo ko samaj nai aata yee duno kirti kalpana  duno  ne apne baachoo ke dimag mein bhar diya hai kee yeh log dushman hai patat naii papa mum ko samaj naii aata

Shweta se toh chote moti baaat pe ho jaaata hai woo baar baar kehte hai ke tere bante kise hai.

Billu chacha biwi ke gulam baan gaye hai wo kirti job hi kehte hai dum hilla ke karne lagte hai pta hai papa kitne baaar jhagde bhi hue mere kirti se and wo billu bhi kutch nai kehta

Annu papa mein sochti thi ki ussme toh aakal hogi lekin wo bhi gadha nikalla .. pata hai papa wo bhi samaj gaya ki kalpana and shan bhar rahi hai  Sonia ke dimag mein.lekin sab kutch samajn kee baaad bhi saala faisla naii karr papata ghadhee hai sab ke sab.

Kalpana nd kirti toh apko patat tha nai baante mere use lekin wo log ne toh dimag kha rakha hai..

Kirti  toh itni kush hai papa kya batunn uske khushi toh jhalak rahi hai...aaj kal akad aa gayi hai usme ... ek baar toh meko bolte ki kutch likh kar nai gaye hai  itni gussa aayi paapaa apko gaye huyee kutchh din hue the and yeh sab bola

Kyaa pap kutch property bhi likh jate mere naam pe ..

Kalpana ne toh haad kar di papa mere baaree mein and shan udaa diya ke maine haath uthya uspe jabke  chacha bhi the meine unko kaha toh chacha kehte ke karne doo

Papa btaoo aap itne tension mein ki insaan kaise jiyega ...

Inn 3-4 mahino mein  mere zindagi puri tarah badal gayi hai...

Papa mujhe toh yaad bhi nai ke aakhre  baar mai khool ke kabb haase thee ....shayad zindagi bhar hasse na aapke samne issliye bhagwan ne aisa kiya mere ssath.

Papa mera koi naii haii mai tadap rahi hun koi nai hai mujhe sabhlane ko ..kyouu aap meko  akele in logo ke beech  tadapne ke liyiee.. maii jee toh rahii hunn lekinn mar keee papa plzz kutch karoo agar yehii raha na tohh bhut jald mai khtm kar lungi apne aap ko..

Papa kutch karoo maii itni tension leekee kabhi naii jiya na kyuki koi bhi pareshani aati hai toh mai sabse phele apko btate thee so maii ab itnee parreshanee leke nai jee paungii.

Shantanu bhi apne ma ke according chal raha hai usko samjana mere bass ki nai hai.

Soni bhi  same hai papa.

Sirf in duno ke liye yeh log bhai bhen hai humara koi kutch bhi nai papa dekte hun jitney din kaat jaye jab tak rahega tab tak thek hai lekin itni toh pakki hun ki koi bhai wahi ke zaroorat nai hai hume itni buland hun akkele jee sakungi ina bhai bhen ke bina..

         Good morning papa good byee cia 3:56 am 02/12/2015

Byee bye  papa

Yours truly

Deeksha chaurasia.

Dear bade papa &muma,

Apko ata hai mera birthday aa raha hai aapke bhut yaad aa rahi haii ma pa...mai bhut lonely feel kar rhi n mujhe koi samamjne wala nai hai ......kisi ko yaad naii papa yad bhi ho toh zahir nai kar ahe 2.00 baj rahe hai raat ke ...9-12-2015

Papa nai pta tha ki vo mera last bday rahega ap logo ke saath.....ap iske baad kbhi nai miloge....bye papa mai bhi bhut jaldii aungi maii naii rahungi mai bhi iss bday yahi dua karungi ki mujhe bula lo mere pa nd ma ke saath..

Aaj maine application dal di  voter id ke liyee aap bol bol ke  chale gay end maine kabhi nai suna...

Ab aaj jab bhar ke ayii hun tab apki yadd aaaii..

Byee papap maii  bhut jaldii aungi aappke pass...kosish karungi papaa..

Yours truly daughter,

Deeksha  chaurasia

09-12-2015

2:07am{night}

Dear bade papa and maaa..,

Meine soch liya hai sucide karne ko ..anee wale dino mein ein sucide karlungi .... pukka.. papa ma mein aa rahi hunn.sab badal gaye hai...

Koi pyar nai karta.. koi chinta bhi nai karne wala hai yahan mere..

Papa maii kitna bhi kar dun inn logo ke liye koi nai samajta papa yahan maii pagal ho  rahi hunn dehere dhere papa plz bula loo mujhe maii naii jeena chate koi nai hai mujhko chane wala ,samajne wala... papa maii marna chatee hunn ..

Kyuu papa aap akela kyuu chodd gayee mujhee... jabki apko pta hai na kii apke samne bhii phir bhi tek thee yehh log butt abb sab badal gaye..

Chote papa as usual daaat pesna aur zayada ho gaya and har chotee batoo pegussa ho jate hai..

Mumuyyy toh jiji ma ne sahi kaha tha ki inke ghar mein bacho ko chod ke jate rehte hai  mumy kabhi bhagwat kabhi mandir ya pata nai kaunse bhen bana le uske pass.. sab badal gaye haii..

Billu chacha mahan insaan ho gaye hai ...apne biwi se toh itna darte haii kya bataun  papa pagla data tak nahi sakta apni biwi ko. Sone pe suhaga uska beta papa apke mehnat ke paise kaamayee huee tekhane laga raha hai..

Kitrti ko jante ho aap saale papa apke jaane ke baad toh 3-4 baar jab bhi jagda ho hamesha bolte ki likh ke nai gaye hai tumhare naam..

Abhi beech mai bhut bhayankar jhada hua baa mein btate hun papa...

Annuu chacha ko sab btate hun lekin wo sahi waqt pe btate nai shayad unko bura laga ke aap log unke naam kutch nai likh keg aye shayad vo iss wajah se nai bta rahe hai..

Kalpana apko toh pta hai kaise hai wo aaj kal uss eno ke kehne pe chal rahe hai jo ke ghar phoduu haii papa apko pata hai yeh kalpana baar baar kirti koo bhi push kar rahe haiii..

Shweta  uske lafde toh mahan hai mai hamesha mummy ko bta deti hun wo phone nai dete thi lekin uski ma ko samaj naii aa rahi jab vo gul khilayegi tab samaj ayega....

Shantanu  papa wo bhi apne ma ka adarsh beta baana chata hai uske maa hamesh andshan bolke hamare khilaf kar rahe hai and vo ho raha hai..

Sonia uske samne sar kaat ke rakh dun toh bhi vo apne ma and papa ki rahage wo nai badlegi kabhi..

Maa nd paa mein akele reh gaye ... apke alawa koi nai samaj paa raha mujhe.. maii akele ho gayee iss ghar mein papa koi nai hai mujhe ekhne walla buss papa aap bula lo koi nai hai mere dekh rekh karne wala ..

Papa apne uss din hospital kyu bulaya papa..apne vo last baar call kiya tha  kyu papa ako samaj aa gaya tha kya papa btaoo na kya apko pata tha kya ..

Bye papa

Yours truly,

Deeksha chaurasia

27-12-2015

23:54(night)

Dear bade papa and ma,

Aaj fir kirti ne jaan mujh kar jhagda kara . baat kutch bhi nai thee lekin bus wo chote rack thee na usko leke jab hum clg ja rahe the

Tab mara bhi usne nd humne. Papa bhut khul gaye hai aaj kal  wo ladne baithee hai. Bhut nak mein dum kar rrakha hi yyeh sab peeche padee hai ki bus hume hissa milee. Papa maine kaha thaa ki mai akele ho jaungi dekho ho gayi na.

 koi nai hai mere saath... papa mai akele ho gayi mera saath dene koi nai hai .. na papa na chacha...