22-11-2018                                                                                                 23:22
Dear Diary,
        pataa ni q uske aane ka ehsaas hota hai... kash wo wqt wapis aaja..kash wo sab kutch purane jaisa ho jata... aaj poora 1 mahina ho gya hai aur jo bola tha wo sach bhi ho gya....
1) ki hum ab kabhi nai milenge ya yeh humare shyd akhri mulaqat ho .......
aur dekho parso phone par bol diya ki aaj ke baad hum kabhi nai milenge...
bus akhe=ri baaar baat hui thi aur mere shabd thee ki i hate u ... i hate u...
esa kyu thaa kyu mai itna attach ho gyi thii kyu mai paglo wala yar karte thii... kyu..

kabhi kabhi sochti hun ki kash mujhe uske bina jeena aata....
kyu har waqt har jagah uski kami hoti hai...
kyu maine apni life mai usko itni jagah dii

kya mere payar  ki door itni kamzor thi ki itni jaldi toot jayegii....????

aisey kya khata ho gyi hai mujhse  jo hum ek dosre se alag ho gye....

aaj bhi har jagah sabse pehle kyu mai uske baare mai sochtii hun.. jabki jaante hun usko koi fark nai padd raha....

kyu bhagwanjii..
mujhe uske bina jeena seekha doo.....

mai q nai bhool pa rahi shayd time lagee  but mai bhut ache se jaante hun ki agar mai kisi se ek baar attach hp jaun toh shyd zindagi bhar usey bhul nai paati hun

yeh baat bhut ache se jante hun mai...
i mis him... kash wo waqt wapis aa jata toh kitna  acha hota....

aaj mishtu se mili thii uske ghR KE BHAR WO KITne khush thii

hume laga khin wo nai ho warna wo humko dekh kar unka mood oor off ho jata jo ki humko acha nai lagta yarr..


kal bhi hum unke call ka wait karte rahe ki shyd ab aayega sorry bol denge.... but aab umeed bhi chod di hai ki sab kutch purane jaisa ho jayeega .....


good night


Deeksha Chaurasia